The wandering Llama returns, we’ve been rained off from harvest so I’m having a catch up afternoon and trying to get on top of everything that I have been putting off all week. So I thought it was about time I finally posted about my birthday. As most of you know (from my previous posts) Llama Supporter took me to Sketch at the beginning of the month as an early celebration and we also went to Dirt Quake the weekend before my big 3-0. So it has been a busy, fun month! I fully intended to have a party to celebrate this milestone seeing as my last birthday party was many, many moons ago but it didn’t quite come together, with financial stress being the main stopping point.
I’m not going to lie, I felt a bit flat about the whole thing approaching the day. I have for the last five years, unfortunately, as most of you know now July 2012 was life changing for me (If you want to read about that then you can find it here) and it’s still there like a massive black thundercloud. I am very much a party person, I will find any excuse. I love it, but not when it comes to my birthday. Which is partly why I wanted a party, I wanted to change July milestones and memories into better ever lasting ones. I am hoping with time this will, like many other things, heal and I can enjoy it again. Because life’s too short not to enjoy it. I have been putting off writing this, I wanted to share the good stuff but then it wouldn’t be true to how I feel and if I can’t be honest here there where can I be? Right now I’m still not able to cope with the first few weeks of July very well at all. I am exceedingly good at masking how I feel with all this stuff to nearly everyone, with very few even knowing the actual dates I struggle with. I’m not so good at masking if you upset me/annoy me/do me wrong, in that case hell hath no fury you’re in the book forever never to be removed. My tolerance seems to be getting worse, I think this might be partly due to the fact I’m carrying so much with me now that I have even less time and energy for twats. Unfortunately they seem to be everywhere.
Anyway, that is getting away from the point. I don’t want to sound ungrateful because that couldn’t be further from the truth. I did have a wonderful day despite the decade change! We ate lots of cake, yes a gluten-free, dairy-free, nut-free birthday cake was enjoyed by all, even Granddad when he was told that was the only one on offer. It came complete with safari animals on top, thanks Sainsbury’s. We went for a walk (or hobble in Llama Supporters case) round Hadleigh Castle and along the coast with my new Instax camera from Llama Supporter. Pink of course. Before going home for pizza and a movie. I am so grateful to everyone who took the time and effort to wish me Happy Birthday, send me cards and buy me gifts. It means so much and you all know me so very well. I am now in possession of probably every llama item known to man. I have cushions, socks, cups, bedding (2 different types!), a knitted llama (QoD outdid herself), a weekly planner and a customised embroidered hoop (Llama Supporter also outdid himself). I didn’t just get Llama stuff, oh no, there was Unicorn stuff from my Norwegian Sister, a beautiful watch from Mumma Bueno, the list goes on. All of it will be seen in the weeks to follow both on here and on Instagram so no fear, you’ll be seeing it all even if you don’t want to. But here’s a few snaps to be getting on with!
I know this whole process is a series of about 2 million baby steps but here’s hoping the birthdays in the 30s decade are slightly more cloud free and full of memories to treasure not fear. At the start of the year I was moping (a lot) about turning 30. Not that it changes anything by moaning about it, but now I’m here I actually feel a bit excited about it. As Jenna Rink would say “I wanna be thirty, flirty and thriving”. So here’s to blasting into a new decade. And it’s technically not too late to have party either right? As long as it’s before the end of the year?!
Right now I’m off to check the weather for the 10th time today, this harvesting malarky is starting to affect my personality. I’m constantly looking over hedges whilst driving down the road and the weather app has become my best friend! Maybe I need to lay in a darkened room.